My birthday

My birthday was a day I was dreading. I was really excited on the one hand because my sister was going to be here...on the other hand, without Steve, I felt like a little piece was missing from day. He sent me two different things and they both were super special but for different reasons. On Monday, my sister told me their was a box waiting for me. When I got home I opened it and it had a SHIRT!!! For those who haven't been following my blog closely, I had a shirt from Steve (already worn) and it smelled just like him! I slept with it every night but it finally lost his smell. I was really heatbreaking for me because it helped me sleep. So now I have another one!!! I have been sleeping so much better with it.
Then yesterday, on my actual birthday, I was called up to the office and there was a delivery for me! Steve sent my flowers!!!!!! This is awesome because it was the first time he has ever sent them to me! They are beautiful purple roses! I am so excited!!!
My friends and family really made the day special for me. I still felt a little lost without my better half here to celebrate with me but it is okay, I know next time I celebrate being a year older...HE WILL BE HOME!!!!
My sister and I have been having fun together and we have plans for the rest of the week/weekend until she flies back to MA. I am really excited because she and my friend Carol talked me into celebrating 31 this weekend with my friends so we are all going to Jellyrolls which is a dueling piano bar at Disney! Should be a lot of fun!!!

Such a sweet moment...

Yesterday when I picked up my mail after being away for a few days I had a little note from the post office saying I had an oversized envalope waiting for me. I couldn't think of what I would be getting and it totally intrigued me. Could it be an early birthday present??? Could it be a package for Jonathan???
So I picked it up today and when the person at the post office gave it to me, I saw it was addressed to Steve and the return address was from his old unit in Orlando. I can't say that I wasn't disappointed. I so badly thought in the back of my head that it was something from Steve for me. I politely thanked the gentleman and walked out; package in one hand, Jonathan holding the other.
When we got into the car, I figured I had better open it, just incase it was an important document or something Steve might need overseas. When I opened it, I realized that I had been all wrong! It WAS for me!!! Well not intentionally but it sure felt like it was just what me and Jonathan needed! Last JULY Steve had professional pictures taken at his unit, and that is what was in the package!
So, Jonathan had a really hard afternoon today...It started off that he was overtired but overall, I really think he was just missing Steve. So I cut out one of the pictures and let him bring it to bed. While we were reading our story and saying our prayers at bedtime, he held it, stared at it, and then said, "I love you daddy, I miss you daddy" and proceeded to give it a kiss and then kiss his finger and put it on the picture. I can't tell you how much I wanted to burst into tears but I held it together. I could see in his eyes that he really wanted to be with Steve. Heartbreaking! But it made me smile to know that this picture was helping him feel closer to Steve. I wish I had something that made me feel like Steve was closer...(for those of you who have been following, Steve's shirt officially does not have his scent any longer but I still can not wash it yet).