I have one week left of school. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. This first year of teaching has been pretty difficult for me with it's ups and downs but I have loved it all the same. It is actually pretty sureal that it is the end of the year already. It marks almost the halfway point of Steve's deployment. I can not believe it! PLUS, it is now 2 weeks until Steve comes home. I can't even believe it is almost here already! This time away has been so hard on us as a family and I don't think anyone can understand until they have walked a day in our shoes. Every morning, I wake up sad. I look at the side of the bed where Steve would be laying and then I touch it....I rub my hand over it. But I become thankful that we are one wake up closer to being together. When I go to bed, I do the same routine, first sad, then thankful. Jonathan says every single day, "Mommy, I miss my daddy VERY MUCH." It breaks my heart but I know it is making him such a strong and brave little boy!
I still am quite nervous about Steve coming home. I know, it sounds ridiculous! I just want things to be perfect and we have been away from each other for so long, can it be perfect?
So, I continue getting through the next 2 weeks, first by finishing up this school year and hoping they ask me back...and then getting through the week until STeve comes home! But I registered Jonathan for swimming lessons that week (M-Th mornings) and that will help get us through!!!
Be The Storm
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